Just to put a few thoughts down for the week or so.
Everything in life is always constant ups and downs. I had this song given to me by God a few weeks ago, it's called "I Am New" by Jason Gray. It reminds me that God doesn't see me the way I do. Instead He says of me:
"Forgiven beloved, hidden in Christ
made in the image of the giver of life
righteous and holy, reborn and remade
accepted and worthy, this is our new name!"
Another thing that bugs me a lot is talking about the day Jesus comes again. I know it's gonna be awesome, but I just keep thinking of everyone I know who hasn't accepted Him and how awful it'll be for them. And I don't know about you, but it's incredibly difficult to share about the gospel without either making a fool of yourself or sounding too "preachy" about going to hell. That's not at all how I want to do it. I pray for them a lot, but at these times when people are quoting how soon it'll happen and I just can't handle it. There are some hymns about hell that I can't even sing - it's just too much.
Again God gave me the right words which I hope will be a help to others as well. It's a snippet from 2 Peter.
"The Lord is not slow in keeping His promises, like some may understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance."
I really hope those thoughts are helpful and I'm so grateful to God for showing me the way, even though there are so many times I don't understand what on earth He's doing!